Blind Sighted

     The moment you depend your happiness on a person is the moment you are lost. I would have given up anything without hesitation but I lost him, but I lost more of myself than what I lost losing him. I depended so much, too much, on him without even realizing that I was losing myself. By the time he left, I was at my lowest point. I lost him, went through some family/friends drama and thought so low of myself just because I failed in pleasing these people.

     I admit that I've done things during this period of heartbreak, things I would never have thought of doing. I believe I have reached a point where I want to be able to channel this pain into something other than alcohol especially after getting a little too drunk. So, here I am trying to set a goal for myself. This starts NOW.